Dedicated to you

Dear Mum,

If I could reverse time and come back to this time.

I guess this blogspot will be a virtual diary where I can tell you about my day, my thoughts and views on everyday life. Because life is precious isn't it? I believe there are better things beyond life. Not one day do I not think to myself whether living is to repay all the bad things we did in our previous lives. What do we do in our life?

Be born into the world. 

Get an education. 

Work to keep our arses off the side streets. 

Die.

My view on death is very different now. I've always been scared of dying, and the pain we have to go through to get to that stage. Some people have a very sudden and quick death (like mother) and others suffer incredibly and still are lingering here on earth. Mother must have done a very good deed to die peacefully without going through pains that others experience. But now I am not scared, because mother is on the other side with open arms. I will do all good deeds to have an easy death when it comes.

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 It has been very hard these past couple of months. Especially this week. I've had been tested physically and mentally and am very excited that it is Sunday tomorrow, rest day. I am in an emotional wreck that I have no idea how I can cure but only know to put it to one side while I keep myself busy with other things.

 Keep looking over me for now and give me strength to tackle everyday dilemmas. Make sure to haunt all my enemies for me this Halloween ;)

 Love always,


 Your daughter Anna xo