Conscious VS Unconscious actions

Dear Mum,


Things work really weirdly.

The differences between knowing what you are doing and doing something without realizing is not a very difficult thing to grasp. For example unconsciously tapping your leg or chewing on a straw. It's just a normal thing to do. But I have been doing something extremely weird lately.


I've been unconsciously sucking my stomach in.


I didn't even realise it until I started getting some pain in the stomach while I was at work. Even though I wasn't eating well, even though, yes, I was about to get my rags, but it didn't feel like any of those pains until I realised when I sighed that I've been continuously squeezing my stomach in.

I have to always think about it and have to consciously release my stomach muscles. I wouldn't mind sucking the fatty thing in if it resulted in perfectly sculptured abs but I doubt that's the case, it just hurts!

It's getting rather tiring.




But anyway, I bought my dad and brothers an Xbox360 + Kinect and a few games. Now I am bloody obsessed with it lol. I play Halo4 with dad every night like 5 years ago with the very first Halo on the old Xbox. I have officially become antisocial now with a hectic work life and my obsessive gaming addiction.

At least it keeps me occupied ;D

Waiting for my brothers to go to bed so I can start playing again!


Love you always,


Your daughter Anna ♥ 

Happy Holidays!

Dear Mum,


Today is Christmas day! Merry Christmas and happy holidays everyone!


I'm so thankful for today, because I get to have a day off from work after soooo many extra hours I did during the last few days. Yesterday I nearly had a stress attack and just give up. I got really tired but people just keep coming in and it felt like I had to deal with everything even though I had 4 others working along side me. I couldn't handle it but somehow I stayed strong and kept going and made it!

I'm having a day in bed today. Told my brothers last night not to wake me up early so I can have a sleep in. Didn't end up happening cos they wanted to open their presents so badly, but instead of going to Point Cook today I stayed home and it's getting to the point i'm getting a headache from oversleeping and having continuous naps.




12/12/12-GIA AND I GRADUATED!!!

 

Best thing that has happened in 2012. My girls are so supportive and my dad has such a kind heart I'm so blessed!

15/12/12- Christmas Dinner at our usual hideout

The crew and I went to have KBBQ at our usual Dae Geum place on Little Bourke St lol very quick service and the food is good. Then hopped into Dessert Story just a few blocks away for some shared dessert. Then we all gathered at this random bar which is like deep inside an alleyway full of graffiti art and garbage bins I got a tad scared. The bar served drinks with syringes! Now that's something new!

How beautiful do these flowers look that the girls gave me? It bloomed and was so pretty! I love flowers soooo much I think if I were just to get flowers for my birthday or christmas I'll be EXTREMELY satisfied! I love it!

I had Pho and Bun Bo Hue at Superbowl in Richmond one Sunday evening. I couldn't even finish 1/10 of the Bun Bo Hue because it was so spicy. And I can actually do spicy! So I had Quoc's left over Pho. Then I found a price tag sticker in it then I stopped eating. Let's just say I didn't eat much. The springrolls were good though!

23/12/12- Christmas Play

These kids are just so damn adorable! Especially the drummer boys, they are majorly cute! The angels were pretty and everyone else did a marvelous job of putting it all together. 

25/12/12- Christmas Day

Last night my dad and I stayed up till 1.30am to wrap all my brothers' presents. My god we bought a whole heap. Little things at a time because we know they don't want just one present but of course a few. They were very happy with what they received :)

Like I said, here I am on Christmas Day writing up a blog post in my bed. I feel gloomy and depressed knowing that I could have had a wonderful Christmas with my whole family together. Mum, being up there looking down, you would be happy to see the smiles of my brothers faces, but it would have been better if you were still down here enjoying life with us. This year is a year of many firsts, and one of them is spending Christmas without you. I hope one day I can be happy again on this day. 

Love you always,

Your daughter Anna ♥

100 day death anniversary

Dear Mum,


I cannot believe it has been over 100 days since you have left us. It's surreal to think that everything I do and all the decisions I make will no longer be in your guidance. But to me, what I am most thankful of is the family that you have gave me. I can never choose a better family to be in. ♥

Last Saturday we celebrated your anniversary at home, where the extended family came together for a small mass and a light dinner (a big one in this case). I got to hold Chi Thao's little bubbly baby Bailey again and boy does he have massive amounts of energy! He loves me though, he kept laughing when I approached him awww! I love babies!


On the Saturday was my auntie's 70th birthday but since it was your death anniversary, we did not celebrate. So we did it on Monday instead. I found a place in St Albans that sell DURIAN CAKES! I was beside myself, got completely excited and had to order one :D

On Tuesday one of my Christmas presents arrived early!! My dad bought me a new bed!! No more sleeping on the floor on a mattress, time for an upgrade! When mum passed away dad dismantled the bunk bed my mum and brother slept on and I gave me bed to my brother, therefore I've been sleeping on the floor for three months. But no more! My bed stand even got compartments LOL

On Wednesday  after work dad, brother's and I went to get my graduation photos taken. It was a fun experience and after that we had a nice large bowl of Pho and I love Pho 264 in Richmond. Gosh all the Pho places were packed, considering it was only a Wednesday. Don't they look smashing in their suits lol.

Look at them in their matching Pj's :)

Since it's christmas, of course Xmas nails are a must!

 Maz's Nails

Ida's Nails (superlong)

 I have my graduation next week. I'm super excited, glad I changed my mind about going to mine because it'll be depressing graduating next year by yourself when you can celebrate with all my uni mates who have gone through the journey with me :D

Love you always,


Your daughter Anna ♥ 

Another life lost :(

Dear Mum,

A few days ago, Jan, our special client who has been doing her nails with us since we started, have passed away from cancer. I was shocked, because I had only seen her as recently as last week hanging in the plaza. My deepest condolences to her family. and now, Jan can rest in peace and continue to get her nails done by mum up in heaven ♥ 

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Well let's date back to last Saturday. I went to my godbrother's wedding that night after work. I was expecting to know no one because we are not close and we don't have any mutual friends. But funnily enough on my table, is a couple that I met when I went on a Pilgrimage around the world when I was 9. I actually saw them recently because they came to your funeral mum and they said their condolences. That was the first time in 15 years that I have seen them and they still look the same! Pretty amazing :) And the man tried to point out his son to me (who was with his gf mind you) and I didn't have my glasses so I didn't see. But I was like whatever, maybe he had no intentions (though he did mention I was a good candidate to be his daughter-in-law) I am in no way interested. Who needs guys when you can maintain your life by yourself? I got three men at home to look after! Enough lol.

The reception was very small yet beautiful. I loved the set up and especially the wedding favours! The gold pigs actually held little chocolate eggs inside haha (I KNEW IT) but overall it was nice. Only 100 guests at an Asian wedding (Viet + Chinese), pretty amazing. 

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On Sunday I went to get my parcel at the newsagents before having lunch with a fellow Adelaidian friend of mine, Tam Vu :) It was nice catching up with him, and the lunch was FREE thanks to him haha. We knew each other from Nang Hong in Perth. 

This goddamn parcel was suppose to come in on Thursday before the wedding, but I wasn't home and instead of picking it up from Aus Post, it came through Toll (Cos it's express) and either I had to pick it up at Port Melbourne or I had to tell them to deliver to the nearest Newsagents the day after. And since I work all day Friday and Saturday I couldn't pick it up, and since they need ID my dad couldn't either. So frustating :( So I wore an old dress/jumpsuit to the wedding. Ah well.

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I went to Gym after work on Monday. I felt extremely lethargic and out of energy the whole day. I was contemplating whether I should go home and sleep after work or go to the gym. You don't know the extreme force that got me into those runners.

It has been 4 weeks since last went to the gym. Bad..

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Tuesday afterwork I went to have dinner with my uni friends that I haven't seen since the RMIT ball, or even before that!

I ordered a RibEye Medium rare with mushroom sauce. I was actually getting sick that day so I couldn't taste much. The plate was HUGE, I couldn't finish anything lol The chips were to die for. There was this tiny moment where my taste buds decided to come back and the mushroom sauce was good too. Only at Universal on Lygon :)

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Wednesday was my cakepop making night after work (Yes I worked everyday this week- 56 hours total) and I didn't finish till late; my dad had to wake up and help me wrap. I was totally exhausted! I could only do it on Wednesday because I work till 9PM on Thursday and Friday, and I delivered them to Jen after work on Thurs. 

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Friday night was Ann's 22nd birthday! I wore a pink studded dress that I got for $15 near where I work lol. It's a nice dress- the retail price of it was $65 on their site so bargain! 

Cupcakes and Cakepops catered by Keep it Sweet - Contact keepitsweet_xo@hotmail.com for orders, enquiries :)

Ann was already tipsy when I got there so I decided to push her further by shouting a drink ;) Her boyfriend's band played for the majority of the night and it was nice, they were very good and I liked it.

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Aaaaaahh..... Saturday. Today. I'm so glad I have nothing planned after work today, I was able to go home and relax. I'm mentally and physically exhausted with everything from the business to the home chores. I really admire all the mums that do this day in day out.

Tomorrow will be another huge day, dedicated to Youth group, the little munchkins and the church. Shall see what's in store :)

Goodnight.

Love you always,

Your daughter Anna ♥ 

Crazee

Dear Mum,

Today was supposed to be my relaxing day off, but I had so much errands to do and places to go I just got really busy and now I'm so drained!

I woke up early to go to Balwyn and Springvale with dad to buy nail products for the shop. This is how crazy our household gets early in the morning x)

After driving around we had Banh Mi O (crispy pork omg droolsss) and Vietnamese coffee (mega droolsss) for lunch! It's been ages since I had these two. I'm so glad I chose this over Maccas. I could eat two at that time, it was just too delicious!

Got home and I went to the shops to buy a few groceries. My brother and I took a photo together when he got home from school HAHA he's such a cute fat kid.

I had Banh Xeo for dinner. I don't really eat much but I had two of these with room to spare. I swear today my appetite was really good, I ate a lot and it's now 10pm and I'm still eating!

I made bridal cakepops after dinner. I love decorating, so making cakepops released that inner creativity beast inside of me hahaha.


Back to work tomorrow! Gotta rest up well before I start the full 12 hrs in the few days ahead. Fighting!



Love you always,


Your daughter Anna ♥